resting in misdirection

hola ♡︎

it’s been quite some time since the last bulletin. I’d like to extend my gratitude for the understanding and patience exhibited by such a supportive readership during my absence.

I admit, I’ve recently become overwhelmed by the task of imparting useful insights; since moving into my inherited home, I have realized a great sense of misdirection.

what lessons have you learned when in this vulnerable position?

for me personally, misdirection always teaches me that it’s the processes in life that have more implications on our happiness than the goalposts.

the truth is, we will never reach a definite finish line anyway; we will never “arrive.”

we are constantly striving for growth and progress and yet no particular achievement can ever quench our thirst.

we climb the mountain only to desire a channel to the cosmos.

we are hamsters on a perpetual and paradoxical wheel of pursuit.

we will never “arrive.”

albeit this truth about reality may appear relatively bleak if we fixate on our aspirations alone, embracing the inherent paradox itself enlightens us. that is, regardless of whether we attain our desired outcomes or not, the process of endeavoring in of itself defines the true essence of our lives; the present moment embodies the only tangible reality.

of course, this lesson is worth revisiting no matter where you find yourself in life; you certainly don’t have to get lost before you can search for and use your internal compass. nonetheless — I should clarify — the realization of my own personal confusion and grief has almost always brought with it a wave of introspection and growth.

as Friedrich Nietzsche famously said in his book Twilight of the Idols (1888), “what does not kill me makes me stronger.”

Nietzsche was not the only mind to philosophize on this idea. in Zen, being lost can offer us the option to explore the concept of the "beginner's mind," a state of openness, curiosity, and receptivity to the present moment. this mindset encourages us to approach our challenges with a sense of humility and acceptance, leading to a deeper connection with ourselves and the universe.

suffice it to say, being lost is no vast tragedy; uncertainty simply reminds us of what truly matters while offering the gift of exploration and the opportunity for healing. I practice gratitude for the promising and comforting corners to this exciting new chapter. I surrender to the painful emotions. I can celebrate — I can grieve. I can scratch my head and smile in the same breath. but I never have to suffer; I can rest peacefully knowing that wherever I’m headed, I’m at least here right now. and being here at all is more than enough for me.

♥︎ Miranda

2024 APRIL 10